I'm considering to stop blogging. I no longer find the words. Or the feeling.
Giving up, or giving in. If you disappear from the Internet, you disappear in general? You die?
I also think I should get back together with Benj. Say sorry and just... be his. Maby it's not so bad to have somebody deciding everything for you? I no longer have the strength to create my own reality. He might as well do it for me. If he want's me, I'm his.
If this is the last you hear from me, I want to say thank you. You have enriched my life. You have moved me. Made my life a little better. Thank you.
What you know you can't explain but you feel it. You've felt it your entire life, that there's something wrong with the world. You don't know what it is, but it's there, like a splinter in your mind, driving you mad