Sunday, March 21, 2010

The end?

I'm considering to stop blogging.
I no longer find the words.
Or the feeling.

Giving up, or giving in.
If you disappear from the Internet, you disappear in general?
You die?

I also think I should get back together with Benj.
Say sorry and just... be his.
Maby it's not so bad to have somebody deciding everything for you?
I no longer have the strength to create my own reality.
He might as well do it for me.
If he want's me, I'm his.

If this is the last you hear from me, I want to say thank you.
You have enriched my life. You have moved me. Made my life a little better.
Thank you.

Thank you.

Tuesday, March 16, 2010


Who's with me?

Tuesday, March 9, 2010


What you know you can't explain but you feel it.
You've felt it your entire life, that there's something wrong with the world.
You don't know what it is, but it's there, like a splinter in your mind, driving you mad

Monday, March 8, 2010

I will stop soon.

Carry me
Embrace me
What I win I lose
This is my truth

Of every pain there is, I've felt, this is like never before
I miss your face you are in my dreams I die like never before

Carry me

Sunday, March 7, 2010

Very gay.

Thank God for friends.
Thank God for girls.
I'm going to try my best to become a lesbian.

sorry. again.

I'm not dead.
I've just been busy with being depressed over mum leaving and Benjamins"spontaneous visits".
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