Where have I been?
I spent about 15 weeks at a place called "Freja" in the north of Sweden.
They tried to mend me there.
Almost everyone in the staff did a really good job.
Maby not a great job, I mean, I'm still fucked up, but they did do a good job, because now, at least I can almost breathe again.

I made some new friends there to. My favourite one I named "Tilli.
Im gonna tell you all about her later.
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Generation kill

Last night I dreamt about killing.
Murder.
I had murdered 3 persons. All men.

It didn't feel very good.
I thought I was cold.
Empty.
When I woke up, I felt relieved.
Not about killing them, because I had'nt done so.
Because I had not done so.

Alot of things has happend since we last met.
I missed U all.

My nose has been broken.
I've lost weight.
I've gained weight.
I've lost it again.
I spent alot of time in the hospital in Sweden.
I found Hopes adress and wrote her a letter.
I missed my girls.
I missed myself.
I almost died.
I almost lived.

I'm back.

Still alive.
Still breathing.