Where have I been? I spent about 15 weeks at a place called "Freja" in the north of Sweden. They tried to mend me there. Almost everyone in the staff did a really good job. Maby not a great job, I mean, I'm still fucked up, but they did do a good job, because now, at least I can almost breathe again.
I made some new friends there to. My favourite one I named "Tilli. Im gonna tell you all about her later. .
Last night I dreamt about killing. Murder. I had murdered 3 persons. All men.
It didn't feel very good. I thought I was cold. Empty. When I woke up, I felt relieved. Not about killing them, because I had'nt done so. Because I had not done so.
Alot of things has happend since we last met. I missed U all.
My nose has been broken. I've lost weight. I've gained weight. I've lost it again. I spent alot of time in the hospital in Sweden. I found Hopes adress and wrote her a letter. I missed my girls. I missed myself. I almost died. I almost lived.