You know how different seasons and how they smell can bring you back to a certain emotion, immediately you go back to the memory of specific event?
I was 9.
It was dinner with steak and Vienetta for dessert on Sundays, the longing for a summer vacation that never wanted to come and I was in love with a boy.
Micke. Micke. Micke. Micke.
He had the coolest bicycle and brown eyes.
For a whole lifetime I had been in love with Mike.
At least half a year anyway.
We would get married but we would not have children, only 2 rabbits.
One day I found a note on my bench.
"Do u want to be my girrlfriend? From Micke"
My heart pounded. I almost died.
I became all red and warm.
YEEEEES! I wanted to scream but instead I wrote
"Yes, okay you can"
On the next break Mike's friend Andreas came to me.
I did not like him very much because had a studder and long nails.
Andreas told me that he accidentally put Mickes note on the wrong bench. The right bench was Annikas bench.
He asked if I could ask Annika to be Mickes girlfriend for him.
I did.
She said yes.
you have so many stories. I never remember them, maybe my subconscious works too effectively.
ReplyDeleteheartbreaking story and your writing is beautiful enough to capture it. someday somewhere a Micke will mean that note for you.
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ahh, the irony of life. don't worry dear.. i have done this and been dissapointed many times.. funny when you think about it.. the small nutcrackers in life :D
ReplyDeletecute story. i love your prose. happy birthday signe! i hope you have a year much better than the last. i hope you find your own personal happiness and peace. i hope you surround yourself with new and old friends who care very much about you. i wish you all the luck and lovelyness and the faith and hope in the world! have a great one! xoxoxo
ReplyDeletehi Signe, just found your blog. i must say i really like your blog. you're such a good writer, and this story is great! heartbreaking, yes, but you wrote this in a very captivating way.
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see you round!
just beautiful photography ... i really love it!
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Beautiful and heartbreaking. :)
ReplyDeleteKind words from kind people.
ReplyDeleteThis breaks my heart, I might have to link to it. And yes, I'm feeling a bit better now, thank you for asking
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Link all you want honey.
ReplyDeletei have never heard anyone else say that the change of seasons can bring back certain feelings. every time the seasons change i get a huge case of deja vu. crazy!
ReplyDeletethis story makes me sad. that feeling of heartbreak is so intense. )=:
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