I wake up in the middle of the night. Panicing over something. Hands and feet cold like ice. Heart pounding.
In the mirror I see a terrible looking person. This gloomy, pail, skinny girl, dark under the eyes, thin hair, big dead eyes. She scares the shit out of me. I blink my eyes, and after a while I can see myself again.
My old self. Chubby cheeks, doublechin, little pig eyes.
I've been fasting forever now. Does not seem to help. I still feel....greasy. Fat. I'm still dirty. And I don't feel any better. At all.